Sometimes you have to give up a dream (or two) to make room for a new one to take root. It’s kind of like gardening. You have to weed and prune to make room for new growth.
It’s never easy.
I’ve been thinking about that a lot lately and every time I think, it’s like an avalanche of thoughts and ideas fill my mind.
Now, that’s not to say I don’t routinely think—although if you’re my SIL you definitely don’t think I think—I do think. A better way to say that might be: when I think outside a
lane border sphere focus I get that avalanche.
Freeform thinking can be a bad thing for me. It leads me down a road of lost dreams, new dreams and thusly, stress paralyzation.
That is kind of where I have been lately.
I knew I wanted to take some time to think about this blog.
Kind of Marie Kondo it —I just used her name as a verb.
Does it bring me joy?
It also brings me frustration:
• How often should I post?
• What should I post?
• Are people reading?
• Are they judging it?
• Do I care?
• And the list goes on and on and on…
little lot of my time (and evaluation) went to looking and updating (mostly art) from old posts.
And that got me thinking:
1) I am a horrible blogger—look at those first posts…I pretty much used this blog as an early Facebook post.
2) I like doing tutorials.
3) I have a lot of
draft unfinished posts.
4) I’ve always had lots of ideas and a lack of focus…maybe I have undiagnosed ADHD. Or adult onset ADHD—is that a thing?
So, although this post essay is a first step at being less paralyzed, I am still evaluating. And since I was thinking, I’ve also come up with about 3 new business ideas.
Am I the only one that this happens to?
I’m also sometimes influenced by other people and a YouTuber I watch Brittney Vasseur— IRL I think she and I are probably somewhat alike -has just decided to launch a new business. She did a ‘pre-launch video‘ kind of explaining her rational and some of her original hang-ups and I really connected with her fear of moving forward because of failure or negative criticism—she gets stress paralyzed as well!
Maybe if she can do it, I can do it.