Sometimes you have to give up a dream (or two) to make room for a new one to take root. It’s kind of like gardening. You have to weed and prune to make room for new growth.
It’s never easy.
I’ve been thinking about that a lot lately and every time I think, it’s like an avalanche of thoughts and ideas fill my mind.
Now, that’s not to say I don’t routinely think—although if you’re my SIL you definitely don’t think I think—I do think. A better way to say that might be: when I think outside a lane border sphere focus I get that avalanche.
Freeform thinking can be a bad thing for me. It leads me down a road of lost dreams, new dreams and thusly, stress paralyzation.
That is kind of where I have been lately.
I knew I wanted to take some time to think about this blog.
Kind of Marie Kondo it —I just used her name as a verb.
Does it bring me joy?
It does.
It also brings me frustration:
• How often should I post?
• What should I post?
• Are people reading?
• Are they judging it?
• Do I care?
• And the list goes on and on and on…
A little lot of my time (and evaluation) went to looking and updating (mostly art) from old posts.
And that got me thinking:
1) I am a horrible blogger—look at those first posts…I pretty much used this blog as an early Facebook post.
2) I like doing tutorials.
3) I have a lot of draft unfinished posts.
4) I’ve always had lots of ideas and a lack of focus…maybe I have undiagnosed ADHD. Or adult onset ADHD—is that a thing?
So, although this post essay is a first step at being less paralyzed, I am still evaluating. And since I was thinking, I’ve also come up with about 3 new business ideas.
Ugg!
Am I the only one that this happens to?
I’m also sometimes influenced by other people and a YouTuber I watch Brittney Vasseur— IRL I think she and I are probably somewhat alike -has just decided to launch a new business. She did a ‘pre-launch video‘ kind of explaining her rational and some of her original hang-ups and I really connected with her fear of moving forward because of failure or negative criticism—she gets stress paralyzed as well!
Maybe if she can do it, I can do it.
